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Friday, 3 November 2017

Update: Kim

Oil Pastel Painting by Me

I realise I haven't written on the blog for a while. It is not because I have forgotten, but rather because I wanted to see what would come of my life as time took its turn. The Holy Spirit has been leading me, and as I pray for the openness to submit fully and wholly to God's will, I discover more and more about myself and where God is leading me. He has made clear areas of my life where I need to grow, to learn to trust Him in.

We often speak of surrender to God's will, but sometimes, we may think we are surrendering, but inside, there are many things we don't really want to let go of. Therefore, I pray that the Holy Spirit enlighten the eyes of our hearts and minds that we may see what hope His call holds for us. Let go and let God, as they say.

I will write more at a later date, as life, as always, has been very busy and very blessed. I hope and pray that all will be well, and ask that you all trust in God, who loves you and will never leave nor forsake you. Amen.

Thursday, 10 August 2017

My Best Friend Became a Nun! Inspirational Story

Some inspiration for you all - a story of two girls who went on the Crusade for Life 13 years ago, and now one is a nun and the other married. Please see the link below. God bless! :)

Monday, 20 March 2017

Reflection: Root all in reality, not fantasy ideals...

I recall a conversation with one of my previous spiritual directors as a teen. He told me a story of how a young woman had once told him insistently that she wanted to give her life to God as a Religious. So, allowing her to test her desire, he sent her to the sisters for a week. He told me that she came back saying that the life is really not for her and that she could never be a Religious. 

What did that teach me? It taught me a few things:

1. All of our desires must be tested. Until we are tested and our desires grow in relation to the reality of the situation and the life, we cannot make sound and clear decisions. 

2. Until you experience the reality, it is very easy to fall into the fantasy, with certain ideals that have been shaped by our background, but that do not correspond to reality. 

3. It all takes time, prayer and reflection. Sometimes we think we want something, but then, in time, we lose the desire and realise that perhaps it was just initial excitement. The surest way is to see if the desire is sustained over a longer period of time, and whether, on subsequent visits etc, you still have the desire to live that particular way of life. 

4. You need to consider all aspects of the life - the ups and the downs, the trials that will come, "would you risk the hostile stare, should your life attract or scare?" (The Summons - John Bell). 

5. Objectivity is important. Sometimes our desires are actually shaped, or even come from, someone else. For example, if you have a friend in that congregation, then you may feel tempted to follow them to join their congregation when in fact, you would be better suited to another congregation or way of life. 

So, in conclusion, let go and let God. Let Him lead you and guide you, and remain open to all He has to show you. Discern, with the guidance of a trained and experienced spiritual director, and pray about all decisions. Experience the life before jumping to conclusions, and know the reality in its fullest form possible, then, and only then, will you be able to make an informed decision. 

God bless, and know you have my prayers,

Sunday, 12 March 2017

Blog Updates: Kim's Story

My dear brothers and sisters in Christ,

I am updating my story so far, so I have taken it down temporarily. Please bear with me as I try to condense the story to a shorter, more readable form. Thanks.

God bless you.


Update: Contact Details


We have now updated our contact details.

Please email Kim Lee using this email address:

Thanks.  God bless.

Monday, 27 February 2017

AVPT Vocations Camp 2017 @ Good Shepherd Church, Setapak, KL, Malaysia

Image result for good shepherd church setapak kl 

Going on a vocations camp for the first time can be a nerve-wracking experience, especially if you aren't really sure what to expect. For me, it was my first time going on one. It had been three years since I went on a church camp, and I had never been to one in Malaysia. So many questions were going through my mind. I struggled to think. I couldn't focus. My heart was filled with anxiety, especially knowing that if my parents had found out what kind of church camp this was - a vocations camp - all hell would break loose at home. But, I trusted God, and I took the risk, because I felt His gentle tug at my heart, asking me to go, and just to be open to Him. 

For me, I needed the time and the space away from people I was too familiar with in order to stay open and discern. I was afraid of my decisions being swayed by those whom I care for very much and know well. So, it was good that I didn't know most people, and those whom I did know, I wasn't super close to. That gave me the ability to just allow myself to breathe, and to "sunbathe in the presence of God". I use that term because it helps me to describe the deep contemplation within my heart, for which no earthly words can express. The silence spent in the presence of God is important, because it allows Him to speak to us, directly into our hearts. One of the other girls on the camp, S, said, "I went to the chapel just to sit down in silence.That silence was great peace. To me, silence speaks of God's love for us and also He speaks within the heart". That observation, that reflection, is just so beautiful. Here, when we speak of silence, we're not just speaking of the exterior absence of noise, but the interior silence. In a sense, we calm our minds and hearts to be able to focus truly on God, and be totally mindful of His loving presence. This state, however, can only be achieved by God's grace, and it is not easy to just "be" with God. The world offers many distractions that can detract our focus from God. Thus, a piece of advice given to me as a Candidate in the UK was this, "To imagine putting all my worries, fears, anxieties etc. in a box, and leave it in the corner of the room  with the lid open. Then, knowing it is there, but at the same time, knowing that it is to come back to later, after I have done what I need to do with God in the silence, I can then concentrate". 

During the camp, we had the opportunity to interact with several priests and Religious - from different congregations, and also diocesan (priests). We were also taught about the vocation of auxiliaries and that of marriage. We were exposed to much - to give us a full picture of the options open to us. I think that was great as it allowed us to truly learn about each of the vocations that God calls us to. However, it is important to note that although some of us may share the same vocation, we are all called in a unique way. Each person is called to do some work that only they can do. Nobody else can fill their place for them, since God has made us each for a specific purpose. 

So, where does that leave us? Some may have gotten their answer already. Others may still be searching. But, all will be done in God's time, according to His will (Ecclesiastes 3). The only one who will know is us ourselves, and of course, God, Himself knows too. The concluding factor though, is that camps like these are meant to open us up to question our meaning and true purpose in life, and to learn how to discern God's will, that we may be open to it when He calls. 

So, as Samuel said, "Speak Lord, Your Servant is Listening" (1 Samuel 3:10). 

Tuesday, 21 February 2017

Blog Update: Malaysian Section Coming Soon & Kim's Story


As I am now in Malaysia, I will be adding a section for Malaysian Catholics discerning, so I will be adding more content and a special section on Vocations in Malaysia. Should any of you be interested to find out more or to contribute etc., please drop me an email:

I will also be updating my story so far soon, so please watch this space.


God bless.


"Let us go forward in peace, our eyes upon Heaven, our only one goal of our labours"
~St Thérèse of Lisieux~